Thus far, working in the lab has been great. I like what I'm doing, I'm generally pleased with my progress, my advisor is great, etc. Things have hit that proverbial slow point currently, but I'm sure they will pick up sooner or later (hopefully sooner). Still, I'm pushing through. However, in the past few days I've noticed something that might start to gnaw away at me if left unchecked: these other students in the lab treat me like I don't have a clue. Seriously, it's frightening (especially if you knew some of them). I don't mean to complain...well, actually I do, and I'm sure their just being nice and trying to offer "helpful suggestions", but in the end it makes me feel like I'm the little kid who's hand they have to hold while in line at the Chucky Cheese for pizza. Fuck, even I know the difference between pepperoni and cheese!
 Seriously, it's this bad... Perhaps I'm being overly sensitive. But the fact of the matter is is that this has been going on over the past few months. There's always someone trying to help, and its causing me serious self esteem issues. "Oh, well if you're thirsty there's a water fountain right outside the door." Oh, would that be the one that I have passed every morning for the past 2 months? "It's fine now, but when you actually start your classes you're not going to have so much free time." Oh really, as if I haven't taken any classes before. Nope, I just went to THE SAME FUCKING SCHOOL YOU DID FOR 5 YEARS! It often seems as if they are either babying me or trying to demean me...sometimes both at the same time. Around every corner there is somebody waiting to state the obvious as if I had no idea. I'm new, not retarded! |
